Of Being Myself

 If you spend too much time thinking about your past mistakes, how can you focus on moving forward? Today, you need to put the boxing gloves away — because it’s time for you to stop beating yourself up! No one remembers the things you did or didn’t do, so why on earth should you? It’s one thing to learn lessons from errors you’ve made, but it is quite another to continually punish yourself. This is a fresh day, full of possibility and promise. Don’t waste it feeling regret.

I’m not so into horoscope, however I do read up just to amuse myself sometimes. But today seem strikes best of how I’ve been feeling lately… A lot of thoughts swimming in my head, yet I am not able to grasp any of it. Who define me? My friends? Me? God?

To lead myself to believe that who I am now is because of myself, it is not completely true. Friends played a part. Family too. I could not hope for better friends, for God placed them here next to me for reasons I needed them. I can be myself when I’m with them, the beauty, the ugly and the crazy side of me. I need not hide, need not to pretend everything is okay when it’s not. Best of all, my friends can be themselves when they are with me.

A friend without holding back, said what he wanted to say to me. I heard the good words and also the bad. Hearing wasn’t all I did, but feel him when he expresses his disappointments, his feelings, and his thoughts. I am happy to hear all those because my friend, one of the most treasured ones, can be frank with me.

No doubts it was my fault that he is feeling the way he is now. But I don’t beat myself too much over it. Like what the horoscope said for today, “This is a fresh day, full of possibility and promise. Don’t waste it feeling regret.”