Do you believe every decision that you are going to make takes you to a different path each time? Every single choice that you have decided, make you think you going for the certainty of life yet it is the uncertainty things you are unaware of behind that each “door” you choose upon? I find that is rather amusing to be sure of what you want when what you want could be the next thing you want to get rid of.
It’s funny, isn’t it? The irony of life itself. How much we really want to understand life and it’s complexity? As simple minded as I am, I could not help and wonder why sometimes life can be THAT complicated.
People throw questions at you, ‘Why do you have to see it that complicated?’ or ‘Why you need to see the negative side of life?’ Do we really have a choice not to when each turn we make, we keep facing troubles, we keep facing heartaches? So much so we want to let the Lord lead our lives, yet it gets really harder each passing day? I believe our Lord will never give us something we could not handle, but at our most fragile moments, do you know we could just slip away without a single soul knowing why?
Thus, what are the choices we are left with? Are we not battered enough that we keep having the same nightmare that this is never going to end? I used to to tell myself someone else has worse luck than me. There are people poorer than me, suffer more than me, bla bla bla and the list goes on. But the real fact right now that we couldn’t care much how other people’s situation is. That idea only comforts us temporarily, really,we need to get back to our own reality.
How to deal with it? We always try to look for a better way out but what if we are left with a few choices that trap us, that could only make situation worse? What define good choices and bad choices? What if what we thought is a good choice initially turns out to be a bad choice in the end? Can we still hope the best out of it? I would say yes and no. Yes if you managed to get out of that perfectly fine, and no if you have to lose something precious to you to get away from that.
Is all left to merely prayers? Hoping some kind of miracle happens? I seek miracles, and I know there are beautiful angels out there to guide me during these life difficulties. We really don’t know what is the next thing that could happen to our very lives. We could only embrace it when it comes around. What is the best way to handle it? To each their own, I would say.
So what is your decision today? It decides your tomorrow.