today’s horoscope


 If you spend too much time thinking about your past mistakes, how can you focus on moving forward? Today, you need to put the boxing gloves away — because it’s time for you to stop beating yourself up! No one remembers the things you did or didn’t do, so why on earth should you? It’s one thing to learn lessons from errors you’ve made, but it is quite another to continually punish yourself. This is a fresh day, full of possibility and promise. Don’t waste it feeling regret.

I’m not so into horoscope, however I do read up just to amuse myself sometimes. But today seem strikes best of how I’ve been feeling lately… A lot of thoughts swimming in my head, yet I am not able to grasp any of it. Who define me? My friends? Me? God?

To lead myself to believe that who I am now is because of myself, it is not completely true. Friends played a part. Family too. I could not hope for better friends, for God placed them here next to me for reasons I needed them. I can be myself when I’m with them, the beauty, the ugly and the crazy side of me. I need not hide, need not to pretend everything is okay when it’s not. Best of all, my friends can be themselves when they are with me.

A friend without holding back, said what he wanted to say to me. I heard the good words and also the bad. Hearing wasn’t all I did, but feel him when he expresses his disappointments, his feelings, and his thoughts. I am happy to hear all those because my friend, one of the most treasured ones, can be frank with me.

No doubts it was my fault that he is feeling the way he is now. But I don’t beat myself too much over it. Like what the horoscope said for today,This is a fresh day, full of possibility and promise. Don’t waste it feeling regret.”


Whichever Way?

Excerpt from “Word Among Us” Wednesday 19th September 2007

(found today’s reading reflects to something that happened to me today)

Many people in Jesus’ day rejected both his teaching and the teaching of John the Baptist. Nothing seem to suit them. These were the people Jesus likened to children who are difficult to please, not happy about anything. When John lived simply and preached a message of repentance, they considered him to be too severe and demanding. Yet when Jesus ate with sinners and showed them mercy, they dismissed him as being too easy on people. How fickle the human heart can be!

The people of Jesus’ generation had their own preconceived ideas of what the Messiah was to be like, and Jesus didn’t fit their expectations. Locked into their own view of things, those who had the opportunity to know Jesus actually didn’t want to recognize him or welcome God’s action through him. They held onto their own judgments and their own standpoint, just as obstinate children do. And as a result, they missed out on receiving his touch.

How often we act the same way today! Perhaps we’ve already decided just how much God can ask of us and have closed our minds to anything more. Maybe we’ve allowed good relationship to be ruined because we won’t give up a strongly held opinion of little importance. Perhaps we’re not giving our spouse a chance to prove he or she has changed because we won’t accept an apology. Maybe we’ve judged our pastor harshly because of one statement he made in a homily. How many opportunities have we missed to make a new friend because we didn’t like the way someone dressed?

When we close ourselves off to people or dismissed them on the basis of our preconceptions, mistaken judgments, and prejudices, not only do we make them suffer, we suffer as well. Though Jesus recognized the hardness of heart of those who were opposed to him, he knew that God’s wisdom would ultimately prove its validity in the lives of those who embraced it. Let’s ask the Holy Spirit to soften our hearts and free us from any prejudices and misconceptions that bind us up.

Let’s seek the Lord daily for his wisdom, and we’ll know his life in us.

“Open my eyes, Jesus, so that I can see who you really are as Lord and Messiah. Clear away any obstacles in my heart so that I can receive your life in me.”


I realized that being tough is the result of constant struggle against the same thing all over again, be it rejection or abuse that you get from people you see on daily basis. Was being tough good or was it a bad thing? Too much of being tough could mould us as people against resistance of those who want to take advantage of us. It also can turn our hearts to bitter, and disappointed with life.

A simple life that we may lead during the adolescences may not be simple again once we reached a time when we need to earn a living. The jealousy, the power struggle, dog eat dog world makes you rethink your life. Is life really that complicated? Why can’t life be much more simple and carefree?


1st-2nd Sept

Santubong Resort

–> Leadership Youth Seminar

   *coordinating the seminar/ committee

4th – 7th September

–> Training of Trainers (TOT)

  *participant (managed to pass through the exam) 😛

8th -9th September

–> Paintball

   *participant (our group won the 3rd place!) 😛

What I have been experiencing for the past 1 week plus…

TOT and Paintball was rather impromptu but I enjoyed it. There was an outdoor activity in the second last day during TOT that actually strained both my legs and causes pain everytime I climb down the stairs or near to squatting position. I think I was crazy enough to agreed to a last minute invitation to Paintball, because my legs are still painful the next day during the briefing and training. The day after that, was the tournament and the pain on the legs is more bearable (I use some massage cream to soothe it) and actually kinda injured my waist while playing Paintball match. (It still hurts a little as I’m writing this entry)

Why I agree to playing it? Because I thought the chances of playing it for a minimal fee is pretty rare so I just give it a shot. I enjoyed it very much! 🙂 The downside to the whole game is that I have a pretty bad sunburn on my upper cheek (both side!) and it’s still red and dry eventhough I apply aloe vera and vitamin E lotion since yesterday. Any tips for speedy recovery??

A woman’s worth II

This is an email I received quite recently and would like to share it with you. I don’t know if this email has been circling around or it’s new. 🙂 I thought this is pretty honest conversation if it really happen and based on a true story.

 In a brief conversation, a man asked a woman he was pursuing the question……
“What kind of man are you looking for?”
She sat quietly for a moment before looking him in the eye and asking.

“Do you really want to know?”

Reluctantly, he said, “Yes.”She began to expound…

As a woman in this day and age, I am in a position to
 ask a man  
what he can do for me  that I can’t do for myself.  
I pay my own bills.
I take care of my household without the help of any man.
I am in the position to   ask,  
“What can you bring to the table?”

The man looked at her. Clearly he thought that she was referring to money.

She quickly corrected his thought and stated,  
I am not referring to money. I  need something more.”  
I need a man who is striving for perfection in every  aspect of life.”  

He sat back in his chair, folded his arms, and asked her to  explain.

She said,  

I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection mentally
because I need conversation and mental stimulation. 
I don’t need a simple-minded  man.”  

I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection spiritually
because I don’t need to be unequally yoked…  
believers mixed with unbelievers is a recipe for disaster.  

I need a man who is striving for perfection  financially  
because I don’t need a financial burden.  

I am looking for someone   who is sensitive enough to  
understand what I go through as a woman,  
but strong   enough to keep me grounded.  

I am looking for someone who I can respect.  
In order  to be submissive, I must respect him.  

I cannot be submissive to a man who isn’t  taking care of his business.  
I have no problem being submissive…
he just has to  be worthy.  

God made woman to be a helpmate for man.  
I can’t help a man if he  can’t help himself 

When she finished her spill, she looked at him.  
He sat there  with a puzzled look on his face.

He said, “You’re asking a lot.”

She replied,  
“I’m worth a lot.”