I’m at the crossroad today.
I can’t decide which way to go.
Either way brings a result I don’t know how to handle.
I wish I can just stay put right here but that is way too selfish.
The feelings today are just too heavy for my heart, and the truth may be uglier than one can imagine.
Just because, no one knows this but me.
I just don’t want to let the ugly truth out because I could not bear the opinions throwed at me even though I wanted to know badly.
I don’t need the pity. I don’t want the blame.
I don’t want to make friends worry.
I don’t want to tell the truth cos it hurts alot.
I am not okay at times but I don’t like to show it because I tried to fix things myself.
I remembered friends that approached me and afraid that I sunk into depression, and I’m thankful for the wake up call. I’m alright, just too much to think about.
I am blessed to have friends that cared a lot about me in many ways that I could not imagine. Without you all, my friends, I can never express my deepest thoughts here.
I just hope and wish I will find my way soon.